I grew up in the church since a child always new God but didnt really have a strong relationship at all. when I was in africa for three months I told myslef I was gonna live sleep and breath music (at that time i was singing for the world) Well when i got back home the economy dropped when we were in africa ... My job let me Go and then I lost my voice for about 6 months I couldnt sing or even write songs ...everything i wrote was garbage ! I started to become depressed becuase I felt like what am i gonna do with my life if i dont have my voice this is what ive strived for my whole life. it was near easter and I started reading the bible a bit i started in john and got really interested in it , i knew to read the bible becuase i was feeling so lost and hopeless and still nothing happened.
I remeber one night I decided to write a song no matter how long it took...i was determined to push myself... everything i wrote was trash and my voice sounded even worse... my voice was comletely gone (remind you my voice was gone for 4 months) I grabbed a pad of paper and a pen i sat down at my keyboard and still nothing. I saw the bible next to my bed and decided to put it up on my keyboard that maybe God would help me, Then I would try again and still nothing.
Almost in tears, I open up the bible and start to sing the first words in john ..in the beggining was the word and the word was with God and the word was God... when I opened my mouth to sing it...my voice sounded so beautiful my throat wasnt soare or hurting anymore...my singing turned into worship like i never felt or known before and then my worship turned into me sort of like preaching ...like speaking life...(remind you i never had spoke this way b4 or even worshipped like that before
my eyes were closed the entire time this was happeneing when i opened my eyes i was standing infront of the mirror and i spoke and said im going to sing for the lord...I started smiling ....and laughing and repeating it ..im going to sing christian music...I was at total peace and joy ....I felt the hand of God touch me and I was instantly changed...When i woke up the next morning i felt God right next to me...i had love overflowing in me ...i was soo overly joyed and changed i no longer cursed but i was instantly changed ...i didnt wanna watch anything vulgar on tv and the only thing i wanted to do was pray to him and read the word and watch the word networks on tv.
For me and my testimony I didnt want to change ...God chose me, touched me, and changed me... and that was it ...it was in an instant.....i know some people say it takes time and for some maybe...but for me after that it wasn't like I was trying to be good i was just good.. God transformed me...and ever since then i have lived a Godly life... I have dedicated my life to him and will forever worship and serve him...for me its not a guess if hes real...I witnessed what he did in me that day and I know that He is real!.
